Day 46 (MORE ENTERTAINING PHOTO SOON)
Breakfast: steak, eggs, sausage, bell pepper, bacon, mushroom: omelet
Lunch: peanut butter sandwich, clif bar
Dinner: pork snitchzel, bacon/cheese roasted potatoes
Liquid: 3 liters water, 2 cups green tea, 1 giant stein of dark german beer, 6 beers, 1 bottle sparkling wine
UPDATE: I have successfully put up a show in Tipton Gallery. This is finally something I am proud of in the art realm of my life. I will be getting better pictures soon, and a photo student and friend of mine took some great photos. NOW, I have to worry about finishing all the rest of the sculptures. I didn’t get that great of a critique on my wood piece and working toward finishing up the duality piece when I have time and a resolved reason to finish it. As far as the alabaster pieces…I am avoiding “Pier 1 imports” but it is not working out at the moment. For the time being, I am thinking more about site-specific sculptures and big charcoal drawings of people naked.
REFLECTION: Through this project and all whom have seen my progression know it is not only difficult to make a piece of art “good” but a piece of work that not only makes other people happy but makes the artist happy aswell. I had my theories that all good art is derived from hitting rock bottom, but I don’t know if the art world functions that way anymore, even if I want it to. There is no longer the legend of an artist staying up all night drinking a bottle of wine, smoking all night, and then having sex with his/her models. This is still done and more than likely often, but now people just write blogs, and twitter to each other, facebook ect… seems to be little lust in art anymore now that we know everything about everybody. One rant I will save you(the reader…that right, second person perspective) is my rant that we lose elements of beauty when the elements of mystery are taken away, ie- porn/twitter/facebook/cell phones and also, ok ok I will stop.
Though, as most sculpture students, I love the process as much if not more than the product. This art project is an art project about making an art project and the toils that flow through both. I instilled the idea of working without two things I enjoyed very much, meat and ejaculation, as to see if I would find more focus. I, in fact, did find myself working in the studio more, eating quick meals and not being sucked in to TV and video satisfaction, working most of the time whether on art or other crap going on in my life.
The idea of constantly working became more about just wanting something to do rather than the finished product. This became a big problem, which is why I questioned myself, my friends, my art, and my life and I still question these things. I quickly wondered why I was doing anything I was doing when the end goal was so ambiguous, though as if got closer to the crit date, things tighten up. I became dissatisfied with my life and the way I function in it, constantly wondering why I even made anything, while countering that question with why would anyone not make something. These issues seem petty, and they are, but as these two questions fermented, I sank into, what I was calling rock bottom…constanly hating what I was doing, but hating the idea even more of not doing it at all. It also didn’t help that we have had a miserable winter.
- distractions are necessary in moderation
- self-flagellation does not nessisarry breed “good” art
- in making art, ones confidence must be one ounce over self-doubt or it will never work out
- eating peanut butter every day…not that bad
- being a good person does not grant you good wishes, being a good person means doing it yourself
- single white men need hobbies or they begin to hate everyone and every thing
- we are all responsable for our happiness in any situation
- there is ALWAYS work to be done, and no time to be bored
Now, I am getting back to work on what needs to be done and retiring from the blog making business and back to relaying my thoughts to sketchbooks, bathroom stall doors, dumpsters, and hipsters…and art students.